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“How To Live Well With Chronic Pain and Illness” Chapter 7 Summary: “Dealing with Tough Choice after Tough Choice”

When you live with chronic illness or pain, you find yourself constantly trying to manage your health as our relationships with others as skillfully and as well as we can. Based  on our evaluations of how we are managing both of those parts of our lives, we have to make choices that will most be the most beneficial. This leads to tough choice after tough choice. Do we keep the plans we made or listen to your body and stay home? Do we let down our friends or our bodies?

Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.

-Arthur Ashe

 

In this chapter, the author writes out some tough choices/questions that we have probably all found ourselves facing at some point during our lives with chronic illness/pain. See below:

  • “Do we talk openly about our health problems, or do we keep them private?”
    • This is a choice I find myself facing nearly every day. When I interact with strangers or with people whom I know I won’t be seeing often, I find myself wondering if I should even bother trying to explain my symptoms and health conditions. Sometimes I feel like I have to explain myself or the person/people I’m talking to will think I’m weird, or lazy, or boring, etc. But then other times, I feel like I shouldn’t have to explain to someone who may just be a temporary character in my story. The best thing we can do for ourselves in this dilemma, is read the situation and circumstance and do what we feel will be the most beneficial and compassionate for us–not for anyone else.
  • “Do we follow our doctor’s treatment plan, or do we try alternate therapies?”
    • This question frequents my mind much more often than I would like it to. So often I find myself going back and forth on whether I want to try a new treatment that my doctor has suggested. For years, none of the medicines I was being told to take worked. None of them. Countless pills and nothing to show for it. So I am skeptical. However, there are some treatments that my doctors have suggested that have proved to be beneficial and have provided me with even the littlest relief (any relief is a win). So I am hopeful.
  • “Do we ignore a new or worsening symptom, or do we have it checked out by a doctor?”
    • I can not tell you how often I have asked myself this question. You can ask my family members and my boyfriend–they won’t be able to remember either because it’s a substantial number that keeps growing. I find myself so much more in tune with my body than most people. While this can be beneficial, it can be extremely tormenting. It is exhausting to waste so much emotional efforts focusing on every single ache, twinge, or pain that is felt in our bodies. Trust me–I do it every day. However, no one knows your body as well as you do. There have been times that I have gone to the ER over a symptom that ended up being nothing to worry about. However, there have also been times where I have brought up symptoms to doctors and it has helped get me steps closer to treatments that actually work for my body. All you can do, is listen to your body as carefully as you can. You are the expert on your body. You know it best.
  • “Do we use makeup and the like to cover up how sick we are or how much pain we’re in, or do we let people see how we really feel?”
    • This is a question that I often answer too quickly–and most of the time, my answer is to hide how much pain I am really feeling. The author said something in this paragraph that stuck with me real hard. She said “Health people tend to assume it’s all or nothing: people are either sick or they’re not; they’re either in pain or they’re not. As a result, if they see us doing anything ‘normal,’ they assume we’re 100% well.” I mean this is an every single day occurrence for me. I’ve lived through thousands of interactions where someone has said to me “oh you have a headache today? I’m so sorry.” Well…I actually have a headache every single day, it’s just some days they are worse and more painful than other days. It’s not their fault, I know. But it’s extremely difficult to always remind people of my constant pain. So, most days, I just hide how I’m feeling. People are not deliberately insensitive to our pain though. They just simply don’t know.

The author ends this chapter by talking about how physically and mentally exhausting it is for us to have to  continually “assess, evaluate, and choose a course of action while already struggling with chronic illness.” and she couldn’t be more accurate. Pay attention to your body and you will find the answers to your choices come much more easily.

2 thoughts on ““How To Live Well With Chronic Pain and Illness” Chapter 7 Summary: “Dealing with Tough Choice after Tough Choice”

  1. What has been some of the things that have given you relief for your headaches? I’ve had chronic headaches and neck pain for about 2 years now and nothing seems to help.

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    1. Physical therapy helped me a bit! It helped me until it kind of plateaued. I also go to a specialty chiropractor that specializes in atlas orthogonal chiropractics which has helped a bit! None of them have gotten rid of my headaches, but they have helped bring the daily intensity down just a bit. Any kind of relief is a win, though, with chronic headaches

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