A few weeks ago someone said to me, “You’re so plucky, I love it!” And I had to google what the word meant since I didn’t know 🙈
That being said… ☝🏼it’s one of my new favorite words and after learning the meaning, I took what she said as such a compliment. It’s a word I’m sure many people who deal with chronic/invisible illnesses would be proud to be described as.
Wednesday words ⚡️(Adj.) Vatic
Maybe I can’t speak for everyone with chronic illnesses, but I know that I find myself trying to predict my “inevitable” future all of the time. I say things like “well I know my head will be really bad this weekend” or “I’m sure I’ll be feeling crappy still” etc. everyone always says “don’t think that way.” It’s a lot easier said than done for someone who has seen the same headache patterns continue for years now.
But even though I don’t always do it successfully, I do try my best to not think so negatively and I try not to predict how I’ll be feeling in the future 🔮
HARMONY: a pleasing combination or arrangement of different things.
As someone with chronic headaches, episodic migraines, narcolepsy, and severe food allergies, plus other medical mysteries that arise, harmony is a word in rarely use. I’m sure other Spoonies and people with chronic health issues can say the same. It always seems that my health problems exasperate at one time, so more of an unpleasant combination of different things.
However, it’s a word I hope to use more often and it’s a feeling I’ve come to truly recognize and cherish. I try not to overlook the fleeting moments of harmony in my life, because I know they’re something special.
Any spoonie knows that a lot of the journey involves waiting around for a diagnosis, test results, treatments, answers, and seeing if treatments are even working. Sometimes (too often) doctors can’t figure us out.
We wait around for positive things to happen in a world where we run into so many road blocks.
Sometimes, though, it’s up to us to take control of our own journey. Be the captain of your own ship, as they say.
We need to generate positivity in our lives. If we wait around for the positive things to happen to us, they rarely will.
This is your journey–you’ll be amazed what you can do with it when you put your back into it.
A word I love. A word I repeat in my head day in and day out. A constant reminder that I am stronger than any difficulty I am facing.
Physical strength is great. Without physical strength I wouldn’t have been able to get up to bat every time I had a migraine during a really important game. I wouldn’t have been able to endure the multiple nurses and endless prodding by needles when my veins were being stubborn during blood drawings. It’s a strength I’ve learned how to control and can be seen by others around me.
Mental and emotional strength takes a much stronger person to master. How many plans do you have to cancel, trips you have to miss, crying breakdowns you have to endure, anxiety attacks you have to conquer, etc, does it take for one person to truly give into the mental and emotional pain of chronic illness and pain?
I wish I could count on my hands the number of times I’ve broken down in extreme frustration, anger, sadness, the like due to health issues that piled on top of me until I felt like I was suffocating. But I can’t, because I don’t have that many hands.
It was worse in the years prior. With age, and experience, comes maturity. Lately, I’ve displayed more emotional and mental strength than I thought was capable of. It helps to have an encouraging support system who constantly tells you how strong you are. But instead of feeling like you’re getting an ego boost, you feel proud.
Proud that you are still fighting. Proud that you aren’t letting the difficulties that pile up, win. Proud that you are mentally and emotionally strong enough to show the world that no matter what, you will continue to walk through your journey with your head held high.
Fortitude is a word I repeat in my head every single day. I’ll be damned if I let my adversities beat me down.