Keep Shining For Others

Recently I joined a bible study at my church as a way of growing deeper in my faith, find another community of women I could confide in and also as a new way of finding support with the many ups and downs of life.

Last week at the Bible study, one of the women at my table said something during our discussion that really stuck with me. She said “You might be a light for somebody out there without even knowing it.”

And suddenly I remembered one of the most important reasons why I write, why I have this blog, why I share posts on social media & why I try to be positive in my every day life. And that is to help someone else feel less alone than I once felt.

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Sometimes I let my fear of judgment and misperception & my fear of failure blind me from seeing and remembering the reasons why I am on this mission to be a chronic illness advocate.

A couple of years ago, I started this blog & my Instagram account as a way for me to cope with the chronic pain I was dealing with. It was way worse than it had ever been and I wasn’t dealing with it in a healthy (I know it’s ironic for me to use the word healthy here) way. So I started writing out how I was feeling both physically and mentally.

But I quickly saw that my words and experiences were reaching people. I had people commenting & messaging me talking about their chronic illness and pain. The light bulb went off and I realized how naive I had been.

Of course I wasn’t the only one dealing with this kind of pain.

While the people messaging me didn’t always have the same diagnosis as me, we all could relate to the lifestyle limitations, the frustrations & the struggles all the same.

My point here is: SHARE YOUR STORY.

By sharing my story, I have been able to connect with people who I have not only been able to help, but who have helped me just as much if not more than I have helped them.

You never know who out there you may be encouraging, inspiring & comforting.

You are somebody’s light.💛

October Intentions: Routines & Habits

This month I want to focus on creating healthy routines & habits that benefit me both physically & mentally.

Here are my intentions for October:

1. Try an anti-inflammatory diet

I want to try a diet that is heavier in anti-inflammatory foods to see if it helps my headaches at all. I’ve also been experiencing inflammation in other parts of my body so I want to see if it will help alleviate inflammation in general.

If anyone has tried this kind of diet and has any tips, please share!!

2. Repeat and use the serenity prayer in my everyday life

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.

So often I try to change things that are not in my control. I can only control my own actions, not the actions of others around me. Instead, I want to focus on the things in my life I can change.

3. Turn my attention away from things that do not fill my cup.

Someone said to me recently, do things and surround yourself with people that fill your cup, not empty it. And I really took this to heart.

4. Create & stick to a routine

I really need to prioritize my sleep & eating habits. And it starts today!

October intentions

What are your intentions for this month?

Napping In Public & Not Letting Pain Cancel My Plans

This weekend I made a quick weekend trip away with my little brother to Duke University! He wanted to visit the campus & my Virginia Tech Hokies we’re playing them in a football game that weekend, so it was a win-win.

We enjoyed walking around the campus (I’ll admit, it was beautiful.) The weather was great, sunny & breezy & not too too hot.

But as luck would have it, I ended up with a bad headache about an hour or so before the game was supposed to start. I wasn’t surprised by the pain, because we had been walking around for hours in the sun (and the campus isn’t flat, so there were lots of going up & down hills/stairs.)

Walking up stairs, exhausted, out of shape

My exertion headaches have always been ruthless & I haven’t been able to find any treatment that has helped them. So I always just have to suck up the pain if I want to participate in certain outdoor activities.

Because my brother is so patient & always supportive, he was ok with us sitting down and relaxing in the student center for about an hour before the game. We managed to find a place where I could nap for a short bit, because I knew at that point, only sleep would help decrease the pain I was feeling. So that’s what I did, I shamelessly napped in the Duke University Student Center. But honestly, it helped! I felt a lot better when we got to the game and I was able to enjoy the experience with my brother & create those memories with him. I didn’t want to let my pain stop me from being able to do that.

Moral of the story: Listen to your body & do what you need to do to lessen your pain. Getting awkward stares while you nap in public is worth feeling good enough to enjoy whatever event/evening/etc that you had planned! And don’t be afraid to ask the people you’re with to adapt their plans to help you feel better, because trust me, they want you to feel better too!

Shout out to my brother who encouraged the public napping & who is always willing to adapt plans to make sure I’m feeling ok💛

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September Intentions: “A Little Less Talk, A Lot More Action”

I’ve decided to really focus on living my life, day by day, with more intent. And when writing down what I wanted my intentions for this new month to be, I realized there was sort of a theme: A little less talk, a lot more action.

I always tell myself I will put more time and energy (what little of both I have left in my week) toward my writing, my blog and my efforts to create a community for people with chronic health problems. But I never stay true to my own word. I’m not proud of it, so I need to find a way to actually live out my intentions.

And I’m hoping these September intentions will help me do just that.

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Do have something you’ve told yourself you will start doing that you haven’t started actually doing yet?

What advice do you have for people with chronic illness on putting their words into actions – especially when we have less energy than most?

What are your intentions for this month?

Falling Like the Rest of Us

Falling is an accident. Staying down is a choice.

Sometimes it feels like we are constantly falling. You know that feeling you get in your stomach on a roller coaster drop? Or the feeling when you trip and fall on your face in front of a bunch of people? Or when you somehow fall UP the stairs?

When your health continues to knock you down over and over again, that feeling becomes overwhelmingly normal and strong. We can convince ourselves that we’re the only ones falling this much, because no one else has the same or as many or as debilitating health problems as we have.

We look around and see that everyone else is on their feet, heads held high just emitting “I have my life together” kind of vibes.

But in reality, every single one of those people you see and pass by every day has fallen at one point. More than once. Whether it’s due to health challenges, relationship problems, family issues, job losses, etc. It has happened to everyone.

Some of those people are standing again because they made the choice to not stay down. If they can make that choice, so can you. Yes, some people get knocked down and tripped up more than others. But it happens to all of us. No matter how many times we fall, we have to make the choice to stand back up.

And make sure to do what you can to help the people around stand back up. They may need your help just like you may need theirs. They could be falling in the same moment you are. Grab each others hands and pull each other back up.

Aerial yoga, falling

Telling Your New Supervisor About Your Chronic Illness or Condition

One thing I have always been nervous about when starting a new job is telling my new supervisor that I have chronic health conditions. It’s a conversation that is necessary but that can cause people to feel uneasy or nervous.

I always worry that my supervisor may be uneasy about my situation and that they themselves will worry about my ability to perform my duties. With a health conditions that are invisible on the outside, like my migraines, narcolepsy, etc., I sometimes worry about the following things: Will they think I may not perform as well as others? Will they get frustrated with how frequently I need to leave for doctor appointments? How understanding will they be when I am having a bad pain day and need accommodations or need to go home to rest? Will they understand if they don’t have health problems themselves? How can I make sure they don’t think I’m faking it.

As with anything, we can’t understand what someone is dealing with unless we are dealing with it ourselves. It goes the same for health conditions. Someone can’t fully understand the symptoms that come along with our conditions & illnesses unless they have that condition or illness themselves.

However, when it comes to working in an office, good supervisors will always be accommodating and will try to understand as much as possible. Even though I’ve always been nervous to talk to my supervisors about my chronic illness upon being hired, I’ve only ever had amazing supervisors who put my health first and who are completely flexible.

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Here are some tips on how to breach the topic and talk through your chronic health conditions & illnesses with your new employers and supervisors:

  • Be open and honest – the more your supervisor knows, the more accommodating, flexible and understanding they can be
  • Remember that everyone is human and everyone deals with something. Maybe they also get migraines or deal with another health condition. Even if they don’t, you have to remember that they will have their own situations that need accommodating from time to time.
  • Remind them that you will be fully capable of doing your job and that this won’t affect your work ethic. Instead, it just means that some days the pain will take control,  that your health will have to take precedent & some days you will have to do what is necessary to feel better or decrease the pain however much you can.
  • Work with them to come up with back up plans on if there’s ever a day that symptoms show up unexpectedly and you need to stay at home on short notice.
  • Tell them about the doctor appointments that you have on a regular basis but make sure they know that from time to time, emergency appointments may come up.
  • Ask them if they require any doctor notes for validation so that you can notify your doctor

Remember: You are just like the employee sitting next to you. You are capable of performing and producing excellent work. You have the same great work ethic and great ideas to contribute. This employer hired YOU for a reason. Because you were right for the job!


Disclaimer: I am not a doctor or a lawyer. The opinions and advice listed above are my own and are based on personal experience and do not reflect the opinions of others. Check out the Americans with Disabilities Act if you have any questions on working as a person with a disability. 

The Reasons I Sometimes Don’t Practice What I Preach

Why is it that we can urge people to take control of their health when sometimes we aren’t even taking control of our own?

Do you ever catch yourself doing this?

This is me calling myself out on doing it.

Recently, I have been ignoring new symptoms or pain and procrastinating making new doctor appointments because I’m afraid of hearing a new diagnosis, or having a doctor tell me I that I need to try a new treatment. I have been ignoring things because I am afraid to deal with what comes next.

The last few days, I have been thinking a lot about why I have been doing this – trying to get a better understanding of whatever is subconsciously holding me back from practicing what I preach to so many.

Here’s what I’ve come up with:

New medications make me uneasy

I’ve been seeing all different types of doctors more regularly than your average person since I was about 12 years old. For a while, I was rotating through so many different medications/pills for my headaches & migraines that I honestly don’t remember a lot of the ones that I tried. I’ve experienced little to no side effects and I’ve also experienced some pretty intense negative side effects. Because of my experiences, I get uneasy about trying new medications. I also get uneasy about the fact that I continue to put these chemicals in my body without knowing how they will affect me. So, over the years, I have become more hesitant to readily fill a prescription a doctor quickly suggests.

I don’t want a diagnosis of yet another condition/syndrome

Another reason I subconsciously procrastinate dealing with new pain & symptoms is that I have received four new diagnoses in the last four years – a severe food allergy, Narcolepsy w/o cataplexy, Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome (EDS) and Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS). So I am scared that if I go to another doctor with new pain or new symptoms, they’re gonna slap yet another label on me. Which, I know, it’s better to have the knowledge than to be ignorant to it. And I can’t predict the future. And I shouldn’t worry about things before they happen. I know. I get it. But it’s hard to think that way when I’ve been through this pattern of “go to new doctor, get new diagnosis.”

I can’t afford another condition/syndrome

It’s uncomfortable to talk about finances and even worse to think about them. But as people with chronic illness know, a lot of your money goes toward your health (or rather, trying to fix it.) Most people my age are both 1) spending their money on travel & activities and 2) saving it. I feel like I’ve had to pick one of the two. And I can honestly (and either shamefully or shamelessly, I haven’t decided yet) say that I have not been saving mine, and instead been spending it on my health & living life as an adventure. I want to participate in the things my friends are doing. I want to see the world. I want to make memories. When you’re sending a big chunk of your money on doctor visits & treatments, you really have to pick and choose where your remaining money goes. So I know that seeing a new doctor and possibly paying for new treatment only means more of my money will not go where I want it to.

I know, I know – this sounds like a whole lot of “cry me a river,” but it’s something I think a lot of people with chronic illness deal with.

Like anything else, though, I know it’s not OK to ignore something just because you don’t want to deal with it. I know that the reasons I have listed above are very valid reasons for me to be hesitant to address these problems – but they aren’t reasons for me to pretend these problems aren’t there.

I write this post as a way to 1) hopefully write something that you can relate to, so that you don’t feel so bad if you are also procrastinating dealing with a new health problem or symptoms and 2) to hold myself accountable.

If we talk the talk, then we should also probably walk the walk.

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Highlights from the 2018 BlogHer Creators Summit

This past week I had the exciting opportunity to attend the BlogHer Creators Summit. It was two days full of bad ass women, inspirational stories & journeys as well as advice that is applicable to me in both my professional and personal life.

This conference was for informing and inspiring female content creators who are looking to spread their content as well as their personal stories to their audiences.

I attended numerous panels, interviews and breakout sessions that informed & inspired me in two ways: 1) informed me on ways I can better strategize for my blog and social media accounts as I create content for the chronic illness community and 2) inspired me to pursue my passions, to feel confident and that hard work can definitely pay off.

It was an incredible experience and I definitely recommend it! But better yet – in January, there will be a BlogHer Health Conference (woo!!)

Below are some notes on what I took away from specific sessions at this conference, broken up into two categories: Related to Content Creation and Related to Everyday Life

Sessions On Content Creation

“Meet Marie Forleo”

  • Consistency is key and is an underrated trait

“#BrandBallers”

Nitika Chopra (a Chronic Illness Advocate) was on this panel!

  • What companies are looking for in influencers that they want to partner with
    • A storytelling element
    • Does their ethos align with the company’s ethos?
    • Are they a fan of their brand?
    • Do they have authenticity?
  • What influencers should look for in companies they want to partner with
    • A brand that is aligned with what their community needs
    • Figure out how you can best serve your community and find a brand that you can partner with to do exactly that
  • Content creation diversification
    • Control your homebase – build up a really strong blog or one single platform
    • When creating content, ask yourself – will this serve my community and how? If you can’t answer that question, don’t post it
    • Focus on other people when creating, not on yourself

“Visual Storytelling”

  • Important things for creating video content:
    • Make sure the sound is high quality
    • Get nice lighting
    • Consider editing your videos
    • Ask: how does your audience want to be spoken to?
    • What is your voice?
    • What is your unique story to tell?

Sessions on Professional Goals & Personal Life

Some of this will relate to living with a chronic illness, the rest of it is just great, relatable, noteworthy advice & words of wisdom.

“#WinningWomen” with Gabrielle Union

  • Everyone is suffering from something, but sometimes we feel like we are on an island; so bring comfort to people however we can

“You are not alone and there is nothing wrong with you.”

  • We internalize so much often because we fear judgement
  • It is ok to say to doctors “actually, that doesn’t seem like what I have.”
  • You do not have to take on doctor’s diagnosis as a sure thing. Get second opinions, explore other options; you are your own best advocate.
  • “It is ok to be the pesky patient.” YES, THIS. We shouldn’t go to doctor’s offices leaving with the same issues and no answers.

“You are not lucky. THEY are lucky.”

“#WinningWomen” with Maria Menounos

  • You need to be your own best advocate
  • You know yourself and your body better than anyone else – you have to make choices based on how you feel even if doctors don’t agree with you
  • Statistics are just numbers – listen to what your body is telling you
  • Treat your health from every angle – physical, emotional and spiritual

“We are everything to everyone and nothing to ourselves.”

  • With stillness, we are able to hear what is being told to us by God and can listen to what our bodies are also telling us.

“Everything has a purpose and nothing is a coincidence.”

  • Life is happening FOR me, not TO me.
  • There is a reason things are happening for you, no matter what it is that’s happening – good or bad
  • Keep a pain journal and tell your doctor everything at your annual physical
  • Keep a regular journal – for random revelations
  • Focus = Feeling
    • Whatever we choose to focus on, that is going to dictate how we feel; if we decide to focus on the negative, we will feel negatively.
  • Trust your gut and instinct and be ok with people thinking you’re crazy – you are not crazy, you are wise.

“Passion to Profit”

  • How to find your passion
    • Document, don’t create → think introspectively about what you want, what you believe in, etc., rather than trying to create an image. Don’t echo what already exists
  • Your point of view is really what differentiates you
  • When creating content, think “what real value does this provide to my audience?” and if you can’t answer that, then don’t post it

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FDA Approves First Migraine Prevention Drug!

Just last week, the FDA approved the first drug designed to prevent migraines! It’s been all people are talking about in the headache/migraine community, because it’s a pretty big deal!

Living with migraines is tougher than most people can imagine. What can be even tougher, is finding the right doctor, the right treatment and finding both without going broke.

Check out a few links that I found to be helpful in reading about this new FDA approved migraine prevention drug and how it can be accessed:

 

When Sleep Disorders Go Unnoticed

An estimated 50 to 70 million Americans chronically suffer from a sleep or circadian-related condition (Project-Sleep). And it turns out I am one of those people. However many sleep disorders go undiagnosed or unnoticed simply because people don’t realize they have them. I was one of those people for so many years of my life. I wasn’t diagnosed with narcolepsy (without cataplexy)until the winter of 2015. But I was having symptoms, that I can remember, for several years prior to that.

Growing up, I was that teenager that slept until noon and had to have my parents force me to wake up, get out of bed and do something productive with my day. Yes, many teenagers sleep until noon. I mean why wouldn’t they? They have no responsibilities.

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And yes, sometimes I would go to bed much later than socially acceptable at that age, leading me to sleep until noon. But, sometimes I would go to bed at 10 pm and still was able to snooze and snooze until also much later than socially acceptable. I never thought anything of it, though. But I had created a reputation for myself in my family as the girl who sleeps the day away. I tried hard not to carry that reputation over into school, but alas, it happened. In my senior year government class, for example, there was one time where I fell asleep (in the front row, mind you) and hadn’t realized I fell asleep until my sleep talking woke me up. I sat in the middle of two girls who looked at me and kindly said while pretending they weren’t extremely confused, “Are you ok? Were you sleeping?” See, it wasn’t normal to sleep that much during school. It really wasn’t the cool thing to do.

When I went off to college, I realized that I could nap whenever I wanted and wouldn’t have my parents waking me up every 5 minutes telling me to get up and sweep the kitchen or some cliche chore that they made you do just so you were doing something. So when I went to college I was like…wait I can nap in freedom? Whenever? That’s the American dream! And as a true patriot, I lived out that dream. But, I never realized that I napped a lot more than some of my other friends did. I napped through some evening classes and didn’t care because my body was so tired.

There are many stories from my college years that I realize now were not normal….Yes, sometimes students fall asleep in class (late nights doing absolutely nothing with your friends or alcohol often caused this), but not as often as I did, it seemed. The looks I would get from my roommates and friends when I either slept in past my class or when I told them how I kept falling asleep in class, that look is definitely a judgmental one even when they act like they aren’t judging you. It ain’t a good face.

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One time during my freshman year econ class, I apparently fell asleep. I say apparently because I didn’t realize it until I jerked awake suddenly (are you noticing a pattern here?) I looked at my two friends sitting next to me and said “why didn’t you wake me up?” And they said “because you were snoring, but like a cute snore. We didn’t want to wake you.”

I also specifically remember my senior year, trying so hard to force myself to stay awake during my Communications Law class. And this wasn’t because the thrilling content of comm law didn’t have me on the edge of my seat and it wasn’t because of a lack of effort to pay attention on my part. I remember after a few classes of dozing off in the back of the room, that I made an effort to move to the front row. I told myself if I sit in the front, there’s no way I can’t pay attention therefore I would stay awake. Sit in front + pay attention = stay awake. Basic math, right? Well I was never good at math. I had to force my eyes to stay open. It was painful, honestly. Like, physically painful because my eyes would be so incredibly heavy and I had to actively out effort into making sure they didn’t close right in front of my professor. And the thing is, this class was my first class of the day, and it was at 2 pm. So it’s not like I was waking up at 6 am for an early class. I was easily getting 9-10 hours of sleep each night, if not sometimes more than that. So I was getting enough sleep, I was making full effort to pay attention in class, yet I still struggled to stay awake.

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After graduation and convincing myself that the college life was the cause of my exhaustion, I got my first full time job. It was during training one day where I was literally dozing off while a colleague was training me that I realized this was a problem. But yet, I didn’t realize it was a problem that could be diagnosed. And I wasn’t sure how to solve my problem. I also had other health issues to focus on so my sleepiness took a backseat.

Actually, the only reason I got the diagnosis for narcolepsy was due that other health issue I had: my chronic daily headaches. The PA I had been seeing for a couple of years who had been with me through each treatment that I had tried and that had failed me, suggested I do a sleep study to see if I had sleep apnea (since I consistently wake up with headaches, she thought maybe I wasn’t getting enough oxygen during the night.) After the sleep study, my PA pointed out to me that I didn’t have sleep apnea, but surprisingly enough, I had narcolepsy w/o cataplexy. She explained that even though this was not expected, it was actually good to see test results that didn’t show as “normal” because i finally had some answers. I finally had reasons for all of the above scenarios. I had a reason for falling asleep during classes, for sleeping in until noon and for dozing off during a full time job. I finally understood why.

It’s extremely frustrating to feel symptoms and have no idea why they’re happening and have nothing to connect them back to. And to be honest, I was completely ignorant to sleep disorders in general and it never even crossed my mind that I might have been living with one. If it weren’t for my PA suggesting that sleep study, I’m not sure when I would have found out I had narcolepsy. Perhaps I still wouldn’t know today.


The message here is that it’s so important to learn the signs of sleep disorders, because sleep disorders are invisible and difficult to detect. Sleep health is much more important and impacts our overall health more than most people realize.

Take a look at this website, Project Sleep, to learn more about sleep conditions/disorders, how to detect symptoms, and what to do if you think you may have a sleep condition/disorder!

 

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