#HAWMC Day 14: A Case of the Mondays

Pain. We all feel it. It could be short lasting or seemingly never-ending. We get hurt, we cry, we heal.

My pain is constant. The throbbing sometimes has mercy and I feel “fine.” Other times, it’s relentless and merciless. This past week has been a week of the relentless kind of pain.

On my good days, I go to bed with a headache and wake up with one, but on my good days I am not bothered by it because the pain is so minimal that I’m able to wake up with a smile. On my bad days I go to sleep with a 7/10 headache and wake up with a 7/10 headache, or worse. I’ve been having more bad days than good, lately. It’s extremely frustrating. It’s more frustrating than people can imagine. It’s so frustrating that sometimes, it’s all I can think about. I can be with my friends, and I’m thinking about how my pain is never-ending. I can be in church, and I’m dozing off to think about how my pain won’t let up. It occupies all of my mind and energy.

It bums me out when I have to cancel plans because I feel crappy. It bums me out even when I didn’t even have plans, but I know that I’ll be staying in even if I wanted to make plans. It bums me out to know that I’m no where near as healthy as my peers and even so, no where near as healthy as I, my chronically ill self, have felt before.

bummed-dog

It can be hard to go to sleep and tell yourself to begin the next day with an open and optimistic mind, when every day feels like the same broken record playing over and over again.

Even though it’s hard though, I try my best every single day to remind myself to have a better mindset. I remind myself to attempt to shut off my feelings of “but tomorrow I’ll probably feel awful again,” and instead try to turn on my feelings of “but tomorrow, what if I feel even just a little bit better.”

 

Monday Mantra: Beautiful Things Come From Not So Beautiful Places


We’ve all been there: the dark and scary places, the rough patches, the slumps, the unwanted changes. You won’t see it until you’re out of those places (I know I for sure didn’t) but beautiful things will come from them. Some of the most beautiful things and people in my life came after I went through some pretty ugly stuff.

Monday Mantra: Being Nice is Cool 

  
If being nice is cool, consider me Miles Davis! 

(If you don’t get the above reference, I highly suggest that your brush up on your Adam Sandler movies) 

But really, people. Just be nice. It’ll get you much further than you expect it to. Plus, it’ll make you look super cool. Bonus points right there.